One choice which will change your life
Yesterday, I had some news which made me want to cry with frustration. This problem had come up a couple of times before. I had with much annoyance, sorted it out, and here it was again. I won’t bore you with the problem because problems are two a penny. The real issue is what I did about it and the choice I made. I had always thought of myself as “A cup half full” person until about 15 years ago. Because of this, I considered I had the ability to identify and solve problems. I thought I made a positive contribution to whichever world or organisation I was impacting upon at the time.
Uncovering a blind spot
It was in a session with a coach I had hired to help me make a particular transition in my life. During a particular session, she brought that self-concept sharply into question. We had been talking about a situation in my life where I was explaining what was wrong. I explained how I thought I had done all I could to make changes. She looked me straight in the eye and said: “You have a slightly negative outlook on the world don’t you think?” The silence must have only lasted about 30 seconds, but it felt like about an hour. I contemplated with horror what she had just said. In one fell swoop, she uncovered one of the biggest blind spots in my life.
Self-concept vs reality
In the moments that followed, I didn’t even try to deny it. The only words I could muster were “Do you really think so?” And she nodded. I felt like I had been punched. The horror I think was acute because I actually woke up at that moment and realised it was true. The pattern of my thinking and my self-concept had been mismatched for the majority of my working life. Up until moment, I had no idea. It was a defining moment for me because it made me look within. Thus the journey to uncover the largely unconscious and negative thoughts and beliefs in my mind began.
For the next few years, I worked at becoming conscious of my beliefs and thought patterns and it was amazing how judgmental I had been, not only of myself but others. During the journey, I uncovered many patterns I had acquired. For me, ingrained beliefs and patterns of thinking are like well-learned habits, which like tying shoelaces or riding a bike, you have learned so well they’ve become unconscious. When you try to go back to identify the sequence of the beliefs and thoughts it takes some effort to uncover them, and then some real practice to change the way you’ve habitually become used to believing and thinking and as a result made your choice.
The journey has been painful and liberating and in the end, totally empowering. I would love to say that I no longer participate in negative thinking, but it’s a lifetime’s work I think for me. I now have strategies in place which can almost instantaneously change my thinking for the better, and some of my limiting beliefs at the same time.
Feelings are your guidance system
The barometer which measures my progress is my feelings. When I am feeling positive and peaceful emotions, I know my thinking is aligned with who I really am at my core. Gary Zukav and Linda Francis in their brilliant book “The Heart of the Soul” put forward the idea that your emotions are a result of your intentions, unconscious or not, as well as a choice.
So when I started feeling anxious and fearful as a result of the problem. I realised that my intention at that moment was flawed. I was about to let my beliefs ideas and thoughts turn towards a victim mentality. “Why did this happen to me again?, it must be karma” Helplessness, “What if I can’t solve it?” When you see this pattern in black and white, it seems quite silly. But much of our suffering in life is because of the habitual default to our mostly unconscious negative fears, beliefs and thoughts about us, and a choice so based.
A single choice
You may well have heard the quote “Pain is inevitable, Suffering is optional,” By the Japanese writer Haruki Murakami. If you put this with the quote by the Greek playwright, Aeschylus, “Happiness is a choice that requires effort at times.” In those two quotes, you have a single choice, which can if practised habitually, transform your life.
The choice to be happy
So this is what I did about the problem yesterday.
- When I began to feel anxious and worried, I stopped thinking about the problem and let my feelings come up without making a choice. It took a few moments for the feelings to pass through.
- I contemplated for a few minutes and then decided to look at the problem through a different lens. I realised I had solved the problem twice before and I could very well make the choice to do it again. The fact I had this problem again didn’t make me a bad person. In fact, the problem was a real gift because it allowed me to release some of the unconscious worries and further reinforce liberating beliefs, ideas and thoughts which I knew to be true.
- Despite the problem, I decided to be happy, and I began to think about and feel grateful for the good things and people in my life. I thought about how blessed I was because I could actually choose to think empowering, and peaceful thoughts, which then translated into positive feelings.
I have this now down to a fine art. The whole process took about 5 minutes in all. All those years ago, it could have taken me 3 days to feel positive again after encountering such a problem. Progress indeed.
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